My inspiration is the skinny girl inside of me SCREAMING at me to LET HER OUT! I have shut her up for many years with no good simple carbs and sugars! No more though…she is starting to immerge one day at a time. Sometimes the old habits come back and I try to shut her up but when I do she just screams louder now. LOL no seriously though my inspiration is mostly my family. I want to be healthy enough to enjoy my life. I’m tired of feeling uncomfertable in everything I wear and every where I go. I’m sick of comparing myself to my children’s friends’ moms or my husband’s friend’s wife’s. For so long I was told I would never be this or never be that, well guess what, I finally realized that the people telling me that wanted me to stay the way I was because they were keeping me submissive. No more though, I’ve realized there is no reason in the world why I cant be a size 7 or weigh less then 155 pounds. In fact 155 is on the high end of my spectrum! I want to be a good role model for my children, I want them to be proud of me as their mom not because Im the best mom ever but because Im beautiful on the inside and out. I want my husband to look at me and think, Damn Im lucky! I know my reasons are kind of vain but honestly this is how I feel. I was the ugly duckling when I was little, I was always the girl with no boyfriend. My own mother used to say horrible things to me about my weight and guess what it only made it worse. AffordableHCGDiet has made me realize Im in control of my destiny, not all those people from my past. With every pound I lose I gain more and more confidence in myself!

I met my 5lb goal last week! Yay! Down to 206! Almost back in the one hundreds! Super excited the ame will be here soon! My body has changed so much! I'm losing weight but I'm also getting firmer which did not happen when I lost my 100lbs on atkins! Affordablehcgdiet is by far the best choice I have ever made as far as my body goes!,

205.8 this morning!!!! 2.2lbs GONE!!!! All because of affordablehcgdiet.com! I can not wait to see what happens once I start using the AME! Now here's the lesson for today.....when I follow affordablehcgdiet's protocol I lose anywhere from 1-2.8 lbs a day.....when I don't drink all of my water or "add" a different veggie or drink to much soda my losses are way lower like .2-.8 also makes a huge difference not eating or drinking after 7pm. I'm 50lbs away from my goal! I have not been 155 since middle school! I'm 5.9 pounds away from onderland and 20.9 away from my thinnest adult weight of 185! When I get into the 170's I just might cry! This protocol is not for the weak it takes dedication and will power to resist temptation. You will not be physically hungry using affordablehcgdiet drops its the old habits such as "I have to eat popcorn at the movies" or "we eat out every Friday night" food needs to be fought as fuel not entertainment. It's a hard thing to relearn but when I'm fully done one of my goals is to view food as fuel for my body not a major part of my life!

So I lost 1.8lbs this morning and I've lost 6 inches since 2/6!!!! Whoot whoot!!! Affordablehcgdiet.com is the bombdiggity! I'm staying focused and moving forward! We are camping this weekend so I'm going to have to stay strong! I'm packing turkey parties since I'm pretty sure hamburgers and hot dogs will be the main dish both nights and I'm going to pack myself chicken salads in tupperware so all I need to do is grab it! I've not been in a drinking mood so that shouldn't be a problem and I don't like smores! My worry is the Sunday morning chorizo and egg burritos and bloody marys! But I'm almost back in onederland thanks to affordablehcgdiet and that is great motivation!!!!!! A few friends at work have even bought from affordablehcgdiet because they see me shrinking!!!!!

Well I survived valentines day without cheating! I pounds 3lbs this am and I'm pretty motivated again! I am looking into some kind of reading or listening tapes to help me control myself lol. Looking forward to getting the ame from affordablehcgdiet.com so I can kick it into high gear! My goal for this week 2/16-2/21 is 5lbs! Wish me luck!

Ughhhhhhhhhhhh I'm such a damn Cheater!!!!!! I gave in yesterday to Mexican food with my husband followed by dessert and I'm up like 3lbs from it!!!!!! I told my husband NO MORE! The best fist he could give me is cooking protocol foods for me :( of course I could have opted to not eat out and cooked for him also. I'm 53lbs away from my goal and I'm going on a huge vacation this summer yet I keep sabotaging myself! Maybe I should be reading self help books lol anyways I'm back on my wagon I feel like Crap from eating junk yesterday. Happy effing valentines day! Lol

Down another pound today!!!!! Yay!!!!! My mother is visiting and has been trying to eat good around me I think to support me because God knows she doesn't need to diet! But last night she had a "tuna" patty with me instead of pizza with my step dad and kids :) Still hoping to be down 5lbs by this coming Tuesday which I should make no problem :) Oh so close to dropping into onederland again!!!! I think ill tear up when I see 199.99999 lol!!! My goal weight is only 53lbs now! People keep.telling me I want to lose too much and 50lbs will make me to thin but they don't know I weigh 208lbs! Apparently I hide weight well :) I wonder what my body will transform into when allowed to be at a "normal" weight range....I havens been below like 177 in over 13years!!!! Also on my mind is plastic surgery! I know I know but my breasts look like deflated happiness from nursing four babies and my tummy is going to have this extra skin no matter what I do! I just want to prance around in a bikini for once in my life.....is that to much for a girl to ask for???? Lol