My inspiration is the skinny girl inside of me SCREAMING at me to LET HER OUT! I have shut her up for many years with no good simple carbs and sugars! No more though…she is starting to immerge one day at a time. Sometimes the old habits come back and I try to shut her up but when I do she just screams louder now. LOL no seriously though my inspiration is mostly my family. I want to be healthy enough to enjoy my life. I’m tired of feeling uncomfertable in everything I wear and every where I go. I’m sick of comparing myself to my children’s friends’ moms or my husband’s friend’s wife’s. For so long I was told I would never be this or never be that, well guess what, I finally realized that the people telling me that wanted me to stay the way I was because they were keeping me submissive. No more though, I’ve realized there is no reason in the world why I cant be a size 7 or weigh less then 155 pounds. In fact 155 is on the high end of my spectrum! I want to be a good role model for my children, I want them to be proud of me as their mom not because Im the best mom ever but because Im beautiful on the inside and out. I want my husband to look at me and think, Damn Im lucky! I know my reasons are kind of vain but honestly this is how I feel. I was the ugly duckling when I was little, I was always the girl with no boyfriend. My own mother used to say horrible things to me about my weight and guess what it only made it worse. AffordableHCGDiet has made me realize Im in control of my destiny, not all those people from my past. With every pound I lose I gain more and more confidence in myself!

I met my 5lb goal last week! Yay! Down to 206! Almost back in the one hundreds! Super excited the ame will be here soon! My body has changed so much! I'm losing weight but I'm also getting firmer which did not happen when I lost my 100lbs on atkins! Affordablehcgdiet is by far the best choice I have ever made as far as my body goes!,

205.8 this morning!!!! 2.2lbs GONE!!!! All because of affordablehcgdiet.com! I can not wait to see what happens once I start using the AME! Now here's the lesson for today.....when I follow affordablehcgdiet's protocol I lose anywhere from 1-2.8 lbs a day.....when I don't drink all of my water or "add" a different veggie or drink to much soda my losses are way lower like .2-.8 also makes a huge difference not eating or drinking after 7pm. I'm 50lbs away from my goal! I have not been 155 since middle school! I'm 5.9 pounds away from onderland and 20.9 away from my thinnest adult weight of 185! When I get into the 170's I just might cry! This protocol is not for the weak it takes dedication and will power to resist temptation. You will not be physically hungry using affordablehcgdiet drops its the old habits such as "I have to eat popcorn at the movies" or "we eat out every Friday night" food needs to be fought as fuel not entertainment. It's a hard thing to relearn but when I'm fully done one of my goals is to view food as fuel for my body not a major part of my life!

So I lost 1.8lbs this morning and I've lost 6 inches since 2/6!!!! Whoot whoot!!! Affordablehcgdiet.com is the bombdiggity! I'm staying focused and moving forward! We are camping this weekend so I'm going to have to stay strong! I'm packing turkey parties since I'm pretty sure hamburgers and hot dogs will be the main dish both nights and I'm going to pack myself chicken salads in tupperware so all I need to do is grab it! I've not been in a drinking mood so that shouldn't be a problem and I don't like smores! My worry is the Sunday morning chorizo and egg burritos and bloody marys! But I'm almost back in onederland thanks to affordablehcgdiet and that is great motivation!!!!!! A few friends at work have even bought from affordablehcgdiet because they see me shrinking!!!!!

Well I survived valentines day without cheating! I pounds 3lbs this am and I'm pretty motivated again! I am looking into some kind of reading or listening tapes to help me control myself lol. Looking forward to getting the ame from affordablehcgdiet.com so I can kick it into high gear! My goal for this week 2/16-2/21 is 5lbs! Wish me luck!

Ughhhhhhhhhhhh I'm such a damn Cheater!!!!!! I gave in yesterday to Mexican food with my husband followed by dessert and I'm up like 3lbs from it!!!!!! I told my husband NO MORE! The best fist he could give me is cooking protocol foods for me :( of course I could have opted to not eat out and cooked for him also. I'm 53lbs away from my goal and I'm going on a huge vacation this summer yet I keep sabotaging myself! Maybe I should be reading self help books lol anyways I'm back on my wagon I feel like Crap from eating junk yesterday. Happy effing valentines day! Lol

Down another pound today!!!!! Yay!!!!! My mother is visiting and has been trying to eat good around me I think to support me because God knows she doesn't need to diet! But last night she had a "tuna" patty with me instead of pizza with my step dad and kids :) Still hoping to be down 5lbs by this coming Tuesday which I should make no problem :) Oh so close to dropping into onederland again!!!! I think ill tear up when I see 199.99999 lol!!! My goal weight is only 53lbs now! People keep.telling me I want to lose too much and 50lbs will make me to thin but they don't know I weigh 208lbs! Apparently I hide weight well :) I wonder what my body will transform into when allowed to be at a "normal" weight range....I havens been below like 177 in over 13years!!!! Also on my mind is plastic surgery! I know I know but my breasts look like deflated happiness from nursing four babies and my tummy is going to have this extra skin no matter what I do! I just want to prance around in a bikini for once in my life.....is that to much for a girl to ask for???? Lol

So I lost .2 but my baby is on a sleep strike and its killing me! But hopefully it gets better soon! Last night I made my own version of cilantro chicken and it was pure yummyness!!!!!! Cilantro chicken Juice from one lemon 2tbs cilantro chopped 2 tbs chopped onion 1 whole small chopped tomato Garlic salt to taste Onion powder to taste Chili pepper to taste Mix above ingridiants, add chicken breast pieces mix. You can let marinade for a few hours if desired I did not have time so.I cooked right away. Place chicken in a baking dish spread remaining marinade on top of chicken pieces. Cover with foil bake at 350 30 min or until done I served mine with grilled asparagus and made some rice for my mom and kids. It was fabulous!

Today was a good day. Even though the scale didn't change I was told by 2 people how good I looked after having my baby ;) and I ordered the new African mango extract from affordablehcgdiet.com and am so excited to see how it works :) anywho I've got family in town so I'm going to head back out to visit!

Down to 209.8 from 237 since 12/31! I have cheated twice :( and gained but with the people at affordablehcgdiet.com you are not ridiculed! They pick you back up shake you out and tell you to get back on track! Love the support system I get from them! I updated my profile picture to my new one..working on getting a side by side and I wrote my starting inches down just have to find them but I know I've lost big time inches. I weighed 274 at my heaviest. I did atkins and got down to 177. I then met my husband and had a little girl.. I lost my weight back to the 180's which for me at 5'9 180= size 11 but I gained a lot of holiday poundage in 2010 only to find out Santa left me a little something extra in my stocking! I was preggo again and already 25lbs over my set weight :( I delivered at 257 this last September. I've been following affordablehcgdiet.com since June 2010 I watched heather shrink to the tiny person she is today I watched Jennifer drop pounds like crazy! It's because of affordablehcgdiet.com I realized I can get below 180! Their is no reason what so ever I can't be 155. For the first time I KNOW ill get their! My life has been a series of hurt and wishing.....no more hurt no more wishing its going to happen!

Today I lost 2.8! So happy!!!!!!! People are asking what I'm doing and I tell them about affordablehcgdiet.com! I'm wearing my pre baby clothes again and I know it wont be long before I need to go SHOPPING!!!!! <----- MY FAVORITE HOBBY!!!!! I'm realizing now the foods people around me are eating. I never paid attention before but now I'm adding the calories up in my head and thinking my God you just consumed Like 1300 calories!!!!! Also learning about nitrates and how fast food places use them to make food last longer so they don't have waste!!!! So gross!!!! Mcdonalds has been forever black listed from my children's life lol. Bakers, carls Jr and in and out use the most fresh goods but the calories are still astronomical! Carls Jr you would think a turkey burger would be ok......not its like 480 calories vs a grilled chicken on wheat for only 270! I'm driving my husband nuts with my raised eyebrows when he eats fast food lol!!! I'm lucky to live close to home so I can run home and cook up YUMMY lunches :) I've also.realized that you can not make other people want to lose weight they have to want it for themselves. I can preech to them all day long but the reality is they have to decide they are going to do it on their own :( So that's all for today! My goal by next Tuesday is 206! That's 5lbs :) happy losses everyone!

So today I lost 3.6lbs however I'm still needing to lose 2.4 to be at pre cheat weight. I feel refreshed though because I know tomorrow ill be super close to, at or below my pre cheat weight. That's the thing about affordablehcgdiet.com, you are treated like a human! Humans make mistakes! We need encouragement not a lecture! I took my measurements this morning, I just need to find my measurements from 1/1/12 but I'm positive I've lost a ton! I started in a size 15/16 on 01/01/12 and today am in a 13 that gets baggy by the end of the day :) Another positive is I'm trying jennifers advice about not eating or drinking after 7. I'm hoping to see some big losses this week! Keeping calm and carrying on!!!! The skinny girl inside of me is screaming to get out! I won't shut her up with sugars and carbs any longer! I'm going to be so damn hot this summer!!!!! Lol

So tell me how when I have all the tools to stay strong and on protocol I choose to lose all control and binge! I was horrible Saturday and Sunday! To the point where I feel sick today! I wasn't even enjoying the food I ate. It's not like I was having some wonderful culinary meals! Just for a to show you have to Serrasalmus the reasons you over eat. This week my goal is to start some kind of program to address the pychological reasons I can't control or rather chose not to control myself. I went to bed past night feeling completely drained. All the complements I got from family yesterday I wasn't able to enjoy because I was thinking about what else I could eat that day since I had already cheated! Sorry shouts the depressing post :( I'm just really angry with myself

Down .8 this morning yay! My old tight pants are sliding off me ;) big smile! Almost back to one-derland!! Whoot whoot Today however I'm going to the aquarium with my little ones.....days like these are hard because you have to eat out but I did bring my two apples and I'm planning on a salad wherever we go ;) That's all for today folks I'm off to enjoy this sunny so cal day!

Today is kind of a blah day for me. This morning I was the same weight which is ok because its that time of the month. I ealuzed last night however I've become a lazy mother. My ten year old daughter asked me if she was overweight last night! I told her of course not why would you ask that. She said she weighs more then all of her friends. My heart broke in just thinking my little girl is already being tormented with image issues! I explained to her god built us all differently and that she is going to be very tall just like me. I told her she was normal for her age and height. She said she doesn't like the way she looks :( I told her she could just try to be more active and she will feel better about herself but that she would not lose weight because she's not overweight. I'm still at a loss. I've been making healthier choices for our entire family but I've never tought my kids to be active every day. I can't wait for daylight savings so I can walk with her after work! I'm also putting her and her little sister in ballet. Hopefully these things will make her feel better about herself. I don't want my daughter to ever think she's anything but perfect but I'm fighting a hard battle against the media and the image they give as normal! Ughhh this is so hard! If your a mom and your overweight and your kids are still young AFFORDABLEHCGDIET.com will help you get back on track! The foods on protocol are the foods we should be choosing to eat even when not dieting! Do yoga with your kids or go for a family walk! Health is learned by whoever raises us.

Today I was the same but I'm okay with that :) so long as I lose more than 2 pounds a week I'm still ahead of any other diet I've ever tried! Plus over 20 pounds gone in one month! That's impressive! Affodablehcg rocks! Last night I made an amazing stir fry! I didn't alter anything for my family except they had some white rice and soy sauce. My husband told me it was the best stir fry I've ever made! I added no cornstarch soy or soy sauce! I used braggs liquid aminos and fresh ginger! I'm learning that spices will make all the difference in this diet! If your food is bland its because your not using the natural flavors god put on this earth for us! Just one more thing the affordablehcgdiet has taught me! Last night I also made my family my Apple strawberry dessert and they loved it! My husband still refuses to try the drops and says he will lose by eating healthy and working out. My only reply is how's that working out for you? Lol because I'm down to 212 he just rolls his eyes.....we will see if he ever changes his mind!

So today marks the last day of my 1st month. I weighed in at 212.4 this morning! I'm so excited my old pants are buttoning now! I might have a muffin top but damn it the button! This morning I was greeted at work by two co workers that said "damn girl your getting skinny" that made my day! I of course gave them AFFORDABLEHCG'S card! Hopefully they order and begin their life changing journey as well! So I wanted to reflect on my life and my weight a little each day. As far back as I can remember I've always been chubby. As a little girl my mom used to make negative comments about my weight all the time. Growing up I was a very insecure little girl and because my weight was pointed out to me I think it only made it worse. I won't drag out all of my skeletons from my early days but I can honestly say my mothers reaction to my physical appearance set a pattern of binge eating for comfort that has continued to this day. Now I'm thinking of my ten year old daughter and her body, she is in no way fat however I worry for her because I never want her to go through what I did. I try to monitor her eating and keep her active but I see now its a very thin line that could be easily crossed. Hcg has made me realize I've been a horrible example to my children as far as eating goes. I now feed my entire family the same things I'm eating just larger portions and adding a starch here and there for them. This is not a diet! This is a way of life! Fresh is best! Sugars and simple carbs evil......its not rocket science lol Have a great day everyone! If your currently on the hcg diet happy losses if your not I ursge you to take the first step and start your new life today! Go to affordablehcg.com and start today!

This is my first blog so bear with me :) so I began my hcg experience May 2010 with some company off the internet. I didn't realize until it was to late I spent way to much and sadly the lady who was supposes to "support" me was very mean and harsh! That's how I stumbled on AFFORDABLEHCG.COM. I started searching hcg websites etc.While taking this other companies drops I was still welcome at affordablehcg. They answered my questions and encouraged me and I wasn't even a customer! As fate would have it I spilled my tiny super expensive bottle and continued my diet by ordering from Shea ;) I was on a roll I was gearing up for our big summer vacation. So my first round I lost 20lbs in 30 days but I didn't follow phase 3 and 4 correctly during the holidays and I also got PREGNANT!!! Totally unexpected! Well I spent the next nine months eating like crazy! I went from 190 to 257!!!!:'(:'(:'(:'(:'( ultimately I knew what I was doing and looking back I.still couldn't tell you why. Anyways I had my sweet baby boy in September, breast fed for 4 months and started back up on my hcg 12/31/11.....I have gone from 237 to 213 since 12/31. The support and motivation I get from AFFORDABLEHCG.COM is unlike anything I've ever encountered before. My goal is 155 by July 2012! I'm so excited because for the first time ever I don't think I KNOW I cann do it! So that's all for now. I think ill use this blog to reflect on my life and acknowledge how I got here in the first place.